Insecurities!

For some reason, I just don't know why I'm writing something about 'insecurities'. I guess it's about time I pour my heart out on this issue. It's hard for me to accept the fact that someone i barely know would misjudge me for being insecure towards her. I mean, what does she possess that i do not? Or maybe it's the other way around! When can you tell that a person is insecure towards you?
Here is the story...
For the past 10 months, I've been quiet about this "special friendship" that I have with someone. All my close friends know about this and I'm pretty sure that it's okay with them. This special friend of mine had past relationships that didn't end well. He's a great guy for sure but i have no idea about his ex-girlfriends. A month ago, i gave a testimonial to my special friend through friendster. It contained words like "my knight in shining armor" and "pretty princess" which are our pet names. Unfortunately, one of his ex-girlfriends read this certain testimonial. I never thought she'd react, but i was wrong. The day after i gave this testimonial, i visited the profile of this ex-girlfriend of his. As i was browsing her profile, what really caught my eye was her shout out then followed by her friendster blog. This was what she said in her shout out: "isn't it funny when the person you consider your knight before he leaves you(his princess), to go and return to his ex. So now his ex considers him as her knight and he considers her as his princess! Be careful girl, your man is just playing around." I wouldn't want to misjudge her but obviously, in how she explained this shout out in her blog, she was talking about me. So to clear things out, i sent her an e-mail. She explained it to me and she told me that I misjudged her because she wasn't talking about me. To make the long story short, as we were sending mails to each other, i found out that she was just trying to find a way out. Clearly, i never did anything wrong. Since then i remained silent.
During Christmas vacation, my close friends and I made our own pet names. The name of our group is "Freakishly Adorable Princesses". *laughs* I know it's funny! We are 5 in the group and we are all named Princesses but we added a little twist on it. Melissa's pet name is The Duck Princess since she really loves ducks, which is a bit weird. Pyany's pet name is The Sleeping Princess since she always loves to sleep. Aihra's pet name is Sweet Princess since she loves to eat sweets. Pam's pet name is Princess of the After Life and i have no idea why. Lastly, my pet name is Butterfly Princess since i love butterflies. I even have a collection of dead butterflies and i placed it in a frame. After naming ourselves those pet names, we decided to use it as our titles in multiply.
Now, here's the part two of the story...
Yesterday, i was so bored at home that i decided to surf the net. As i was doing so, i ran into the profile of my special friend's ex-girlfriend(same girl who told me all those stuff a month ago). Here is her new shout out that again strucked me: "waaaaaaaaaaaaah!!! and all of a sudden she is now a butterfly princess? i know it's too lame to argue on this but why? oh well, i can't blame her. I'm not like her". Well you know what, she is definitely speaking the truth! She is not like me and that is the main reason why she hates me. Again, she expresses in her self-righteous blog that I am insecure for copying her pet name. Let me ask you a question, does anyone have a right to own a pet name? And should you call someone who coincedentally has the same pet name as you as an insecure bitch? I never reacted to all the things she's been saying. To tell you honestly, i was a bit insecure towards her at first, but now i've been thinking, what's with her that i do not have? Acutually, she's the one who's supposed to ask that question. The guy that we both like chose me over her, so why should I be insecure? I'm even thinking now that she's the one who is insecure towards me because she's been acting weird in her blogs. She's the one who's reacting so harsh on what i'm doing. She's the one who's always finding something wrong with what i'm doing.
So, tell me who is insecure now?! I hope she would just leave me alone.